well. oops.

Ok. Sunday... Sunday I had a *really* bad day, and I ended up staying out with a friend a bit late, just to calm myself down. Then Monday, I *was* going to come right home after work, but a friend had a crisis, and then everyone was at this guys' bachelor party, and I didn't want them to all think me super lame. so I was out too late that night, too. so. here you go.

Day 12 - something you don't leave the house without.

This will be a short and easy one. My phone. I have actually turned around and come back to the house, risking being late to work and appointments, if I realize I have left it on my dresser or something. I may have an addiction.


Day 13 - Goals

Wow. That's quite a question. I sort of feel like I'm at the point where I need to reevaluate some things and reset some goals for the shorter term. However, I guess over some long term time, a few goals:

1. to visit all 50 states (just what... 19 to go?)
2. To finish another triathalon in a much more acceptable time
3. to finish a 5k in less than 30 minutes
4. to move somewhere. even if I don't stay there for the rest of my life. just for a while, to get out of Oklahoma, and get some experience elsewhere.
5. to get my body back to where I feel comfortable being in just a sports bra and shorts

Day 14 -
Day 14 is interested. It's supposed to be a picture of yourself from last year and how you have changed.

This is how I looked almost exactly a year ago. Honestly... I could not have been more unhappy at that time. I was living (essentially) alone. I was in an awful, completely ridiculous, emotionally abusive relationship. I *hated* my full time job, more than I have ever hated any job in my life. I was spending spending spending money. I was having to cut friends out of my life for stupid reasons. I wasn't working out. I was miserable.

In a year... so much has changed. I am renting my house to someone and living with my parents. I was able to leave the job that sucked and become full time at a place that I love more than any job I have ever had. I know that this place is where I intend to stay. I have so many friends that want to be around me and spend time with me. I exercise pretty hardcore 4-7 days a week. I am saving (some) money. I am not in that awful relationship. I am in love with someone, who I currently cannot have, but despite the fact that it does make me unahppy... I am not miserable. I miss her, this wonderful woman. I know that if I never get to be with her, I will not die from it. I'll be sad, but I'll be ok. My life won't end. I just would rather not have life without her. Life with her is so much better.

But anyway... all that to say... I am SO much, a thousand times happier and in a better place than I was a year ago. I love. I am loved. I am amazing. I am fantastic at my job. I love my friends and coworkers. 

I am better. :) Much, much better.