Sometimes, in the evenings, my dog naps on my lap as we all watch tv. A lot of the time, he prefers to sit on my mom's lap. You know, grandparents are usually the favorites.
My parents and I sit and watch Desperate Housewives, Biggest Loser, Frasier... they like to watch a bunch of ridiculous contest shows, like American Idol, Dancing With the Stars and all that kind of business. I enjoy it. I plan, one day, to have a wife who will sit with me in the evenings, watch tv and movies, snuggle on the couch... We will talk, we will just watch the shows, we will enjoy each other's company. Sometimes we may be on our laptops, but it's very likely that I will be much more interested in holding my beautiful wife than playing on the computer. Unless I have to do something for work or... something.
Right now I really need to take care of some things. I have some stress going on that I need to fix. There are some things I can control a little bit, and some things I can't control at all. The things I can control a bit all relate to money. I am working on those things. Making them better, anyway. I can't exactly fix them. The problem is... when I get stressed out, I don't want to do anything. I don't want to take care of things, I don't want to make them better, I don't want to have to put out any effort. It's extremely frustrating. It doesn't make it any better that my parents realize I need to get moving and constantly remind me of it. I'm doing the best that I can... well. Maybe not the best that I can. I realize this.
I don't know. I really am working on it.
At least my dog sleeps on my lap in the evenings. It makes life a little less frustrating.
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