Does it really matter?

So. This time at training is a serious lesson in control for me, or lack thereof. Like I mentioned before, I am sharing a car with 3 guys. They are pretty cool about it, no one tries to have the car all the time or act like no one else can use it. So that's pretty nice. However, until tonight, I haven't driven anything since January 30.

That is very weird for me. I like to drive. My Taurus was always a big, roomy vehicle, and I enjoyed being the one to drive people around. I usually drank the least, or wouldn't drink at all, when we went out to the clubs, so I ended up being the one to drive. When I sold the Taurus and got a new vehicle, I wanted to make sure I got something that would be big enough for people, a good road trip car. Have room for luggage and such. That's why I went with an SUV. I really like being the driver.

I also... have some serious control issues. I don't like being stuck somewhere without a car, I don't like being at someone else's mercy, and I don't like to not be the one driving. Even when my girl and I go out, or most of the time when I go out somewhere with my friends. I am driving.

A third, more minor issue, is my motion sickness. But usually, as long as I'm in the front, I'm ok.

All that being said, not being the one to drive everywhere, or even anywhere, really, has been really strange for me. Thankfully, tonight all the boys had a beer, and I had nothing. They were all a little more comfortable having me drive, just in case we got pulled over for any reason. It was nice to be the driver again!

I am actually half way through this now. It's actually been quite nice to be away from home for this long. Not having to do just the normal routine for so long is quite refreshing. But. I am going to be ready to get home. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss my dog. I'm kind of over being in a place where I don't really know people, don't have my own car, and have to worry about upcoming tests! Haha. Ok, ok. I am loving it here. It's wonderful, it's relaxing in many ways, the weather is gorgeous, the food is delicious, and it's a change of scenery in many ways. But yes, I'm ready to get home.

Just a little longer. Just a little more to learn.