New things

Well, I started a diet on Sunday this week. I have about 20 lbs I need to lose to be able to get back down to the mid range of a healthy BMI, and to be able to have my clothes fitting about like they used to (as opposed to being a little bit tight). I miss my six-pack. Hahah. I miss my clothes fitting. I miss not feeling fat and gross.

I do realize that in comparison to many people, I am not "fat and gross." I think, though, that everyone has a weight and body look that they are happy with, and I was at mine around 20 lbs ago. I do not like looking the way I currently look naked. I used to be ok with it, but I am currently not. I want to show off my back tattoo and not feel like anyone will be judging me for my fat belly hanging over my pants, ha. My goal is to be ready by Pride, which I think is a perfectly acceptable time frame. I do, however, need to find some sort of bra that supports by wrapping around my neck instead of my back. I imagine I will be pretty girly looking that day... but then I'll have baggy shorts sagging and probably a bandana to make up for it. :)

The diet is going quite well. My family and I are using Nutrisystem. It's actually pretty easy to follow. It's nice to be able to know exactly what to eat. I get to eat pretty well, they have all kinds of things in their menu: pancakes, omelets, lasagna, tuna, cookies... it's really just all about the right portion size and avoiding eating foods with lots of calories and fats, eating more fruits and vegetables, etc. It's hard sometimes, because I'm used to snacking whenever I feel like, on whatever is available. So I've had some cravings for popcorn or chips or pizza. I'm trying to get through the first couple of weeks, though, without eating off the plan, and then I will allow myself to occasionally eat out. I think the important thing is just portion size, and avoiding lots of dressings or high carbs, etc.

Anyway. I've also been working out every day. Lots of cardio! haha. And I've decided to hit the gym for weights 2-3 times a week. It has helped that I have been closing this week. Going in to work later means I can sleep in a bit, get up, have breakfast, work out, watch a little tv, and get my lunch and dinner together. I will be sad to switch to an earlier shift next week, but maybe I will be able to focus on changing yet another habit: going to bed at a decent hour. :)

I slept a bit late today, so I should probably get around now. I ate breakfast, played with my dog a bit and have been watching tv. I need to exercise, shower and then get my stuff together for work tonight.

Day 4, bring it on!